Q and A with Myself

“It's very simple. As you grow, you learn more. If you stayed twenty-two, you'd always be as ignorant as you were at twenty-two. Aging is not just decay, you know. It's growth. It's more than the negative that you're going to die, it's also the positive that you understand you're going to die, and that you live a better life because of it.”
― Mitch Albom, Tuesdays With Morrie

Many things have been going around lately, and I’ve become busy with being a housewife, mother, online teacher, writer, adviser, jobseeker, et cetera. I left the corporate world early this year and I was able to do a lot of things and realizations from time to time. Life is wonderful. It’s scary, but oftentimes wonderful. I like the wisdom that I get from dealing with different people and experiencing new things. The decision that I made months ago was liberating and I think I am a deeper person now.

It’s true that for someone to grow, she must learn to let go. Let go of things that are holding her back. Let go of fear and insecurities and be free to take a step up. Mind you, I was so scared at first and until now when I look back and think about it, oh boy, was it bravery or stupidity? But I know it’s more of faith, a big leap of faith. My aunt said it was not that hard for me to decide then because I kept my lifestyle low. I didn’t rent an apartment or loan a house. I kept my standard of living low. Maybe she’s right but being unemployed even if our financial needs are not grand, still is challenging. I will not be talking about financial management here, I want to talk about life. I am going to make an interview with myself.

Tell me about yourself

I am Beverly. I am 29 years old, married with a 2-year-old daughter. I am a homebody but an adventurous person too. I like exploring new things but sometimes I like to play it safe, I just go with the norm so long as it does not go against my principles in life. I am both boring and interesting, it depends on the person’s perspective really. I like observing people and things. I like watching documentaries on YouTube. I like talking and listening to people. I am a lot of things, but I am not confused or lost.

Who do you look up to the most, and what qualities do you love about that person?

I guess it would be my aunt, my mother’s older sister. She is a giver. She loves helping people but is also very strict. I admire her husband too. The two of them I consider as my mentors. They taught me so many things about life. They are my greatest influencers.

What would be your perfect day?

A day at the beach with my family. I like simple things in life.

What’s your biggest fear?

Leaving my daughter too soon. I want to be with her ‘til I’m 80.

How do you like to be comforted when you’re sad or upset?

Just be with me. Be physically and mindfully present.

What’s your all-time favorite memory?

Memories with my father. He died when I was 6. I wish he lived a little longer. Long enough for me to remember him clearly because honestly, I only have a little memory of him.

What’s your favorite thing you own and why?

Watch. It tells me about time.

Where do you hope to be five years from now?

Living in our own house.

Thoughts about love

Deciding to love someone is a good choice. We all need love. We give out and take in love. We should not be selfish about it.

Favorite quote

Let go and let God.

Advice to your daughter

Aki take your time. Don’t hurry up on things. Live life to the fullest but be responsible also.